A Productive Day of Rest & Relaxation

So today I woke up barely able to walk properly. My sprained ankle had got worse so I decided to stay home and take it easy. Which was very difficult for me to deal with. As noted by the several cookies and tea I devoured at my desk station. The forced rest at home led to a much needed organization of space and paperwork. Aside from getting some asynchronous work done I got myself financially organized! I made up a monthly budget spreadsheet on excel and I reorganized all my debt on a debt tracker I found online. Despite the extreme sedentary-filled day, I was productive. So I’m feeling good about that. After taking off the compression bandage, I did note a whole lot of swelling on the ankle in comparison to the other. But I am able to walk better so I’m hopeful that I can at least get into the gym to use the cardio machines to train/work off these cookies tomorrow. Overall, just a lazy day of reluctant rest.

Life is a Roller Coaster Ride

Okay, so I have not been updating or blogging consistently for a while now. It’s a combination of “I’m too busy. I don’t have time” (which is a bs excuse for everything) and the fact that I had intended this blog to be specialized towards the topics of health and/or faith… all things that I am very interested and passionate about incorporating more into my life. But as a result, I have skipped out on blogging the “non-sensical” things of my everyday life. Which was never a practice of mine in my youthful and naive livejournal days. So in order to bring consistency and life into this blog, I’m going to blog about my daily life-happenings– all the good stuff, bad stuff and just random ramblings. This is done more for myself as a tool of growth and reflection.

Update on my life: I am now in my third term (out of 8) in an extended online Master’s of Clinical Social Work program at Simmons College. After much prayer and various applications to different life trajectories… this option just worked. I applied to the one graduate school I most wanted to go to that fit my lifestyle and told God and myself that if Social Work school was meant for me it would happen. I wouldn’t need to apply to 10 different schools. I also started applying for a year long missionary work and an aboard teaching stunt. But none of those applications panned out as smoothly as the MSW program did. So, here I am. There were a few adjustment bumps in the road at the beginning– lots of family stuff happened. But I survived and made it onto my third term and judging these first three weeks, I have my work really cut out for me.

In regards to health, eating well, losing weight, and exercising. I have gotten back on the “health train” but not nearly as strict as I used to be. I think the level of strictness I have had in the past has given me weight loss results. But was far from being healthy in terms of mindset. I had a “good food vs bad food” mentality and had a great amount of guilt surrounding eating so called “bad food.” I used to login a 900cal/day plus exercise to lose weight. Effective but extremely unhealthy. Now my days typically range from a low of 1400cals to a high of 3400cals per day. Never lower than 1000cal (half the required cals to maintain weight). I have also purchased a fitbit (which I love) it keeps me in check to stay active. As long as I workout for 30mins about a 3-5x a week and eat normally I consider myself pretty healthy. I wouldn’t consider myself fit, since I do enjoy take-out (a little too much). But I’m content for the most part. Like everyone, I wouldn’t mind being leaner and slimmer… but I’m also pretty happy with what my body is capable of and what regular exercise has done for me (yay endorphins!). I have also signed up for a 10k race this coming Sunday as a goal/milestone for when I turn 26 the next day! So, I’m both excited and nervous that my “training” will be enough. Who knows, maybe I’ll love it so much that I’ll pursue a half marathon! *gasp* I hope so.

While running today I twisted my ankle and fell. It sucked. A whole lot. But I walked it off, cleaned up my wounds and iced my ankle. So these next few days I’m gonna have to utilize bike or elliptical since I don’t want to do anything that would jeopardize the healing process before Sunday. The forecast also says it will rain on Sunday so I’m a little weary about that…let’s hope not. *fingers crossed”

Within the last few months, I have quit my old job to go to a new one. Only to be terminated after 6weeks of orientation from that job as I was not deemed a “good fit.” Which then led me to scramble for a new job which thankfully will be starting in a few weeks. As you can tell, it has been a roller coaster of emotions these last few months. As you could also guess, my prayerful life has been pretty inconsistent and dependent on my mood. But I’m feeling a bit more optimistic that everything will gain momentum and move in a more positive direction. Just gotta keep hope, pray and work hard until everything sticks.

Deciding to Live Frugally

Lately I have been approached with many opportunities to be a “grown up” and move out of the family nest. I have been extremely blessed to have a supportive family that provide for my basic needs (i.e. housing and food). Occasionally, I have had the urge to move out and to be an “adult.” In an individualistic culture as this one, to “mooch” off of family is an irresponsible move.

Numbers-wise, I can do it. I can comfortably have a roommate and live within my means. Since starting graduate school I’ve had to take a hard look at my overall student debt. Something that I have been avoiding for quite sometime. I doubled over looking at that number. Keeping it in perspective, it is not the worst. I stayed in-state and paid for most of my extra semester in college out of pocket. Plus, I was able to have the “college experience” while going to an in-state University. I would not have chosen it any other way. Despite my loans being in forbearance due to student status. I’ve resolved to tackle it all little by little while attending school. Something I should have done during my naive undergraduate days.

After much research and debate, I’ve resolved that I want to be one of those “How I paid $30,000 of student debt in 10 months” sort of peeps. I’ve started budgeting and decided that hey, although I may not “look” like a working adult. My bank account will. For that, I will be okay with.



As of lately, I have been heavily discerning on what God wants me to do with my life. I feel this restless desire to do more with my life. But I am at a loss of how to fuel that burning desire. I feel a strong call to missionary work and social service work. I do not know what road to take and where God wants me to serve. I do know that the two roads I am discerning upon are the two roads that the world discourages me to follow. Neither option is rational or produces a generous financial income. But I am holding on to the faith to remain strong and true to the call of God’s will despite what society is telling me to do. Whichever path I choose, I pray that my loved ones are to be supportive and understanding to the will of God on my life. For I know living a Christ-like life is far from easy. I pray for strength and guidance during these next few months of discernment. And I humbly ask that you would pray for me as well during these times.

Prayer to Do God’s Will by: Thomas Merton

My Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me
Nor do I really know myself,
And the fact that I think I am following Your will
Does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please You
Does in fact please You.
And I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this,
You will lead me by the right road
Though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust You always though,
I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for You are ever with me,
And You will never leave me to face my struggles alone.


{Discernment Prayers: Source}

The Gratitude List

1-1For the month of November I thought it would be appropriate to list all the things that I am grateful for in life. Often times our minds are stuck on what we don’t have and what we want. We frequently forget what we DO have. The sort of things that others pray to have.

People reaching their mid-twenties are pressured by society to “get their stuff together.” Especially if they do not have a family already in the works or a steady job. I know I can speak for our fellow “late bloomers” that God has plans for us that we cannot foresee and the world can not foresee.

Despite knowing that and having officially reached a quarter of a century, I still feel a desperate need for change in my life. For the past few months I have been working on transitioning within my career and going through the process of advancing my educational level. In hopes for a better change.

As you can imagine my mind is going through a semi-stressful time where I frequently examine my life in what I don’t have and what I want to work towards getting. It has become discouraging on the spirit and of the heart. So, in honor of this Thanksgiving month I am choosing to change my perspective, embrace all that I have taken for granted and count my blessings. Below is my gratitude list.

I am thankful for…

  1. Our God: first and foremost, He has given me everything that my selfish self does not deserve.
  2. My family: through thick and thin, they are always there for me.
  3. My mother: she always cares for me more than I care for myself.
  4. My dog: he loves cuddles and always happy to see me after a long day of work. He is my instant mood booster.
  5. My faith communities: Not everyone has a faith group that helps them grow in the faith or is supported on a spiritual level like I have. I am very blessed to be apart of three!
  6. My little siblings: both by blood and not blood-related. They remind me to stay grounded and to be the best person/big sister I can be.
  7. My job: I have been very fortunate to always be employed in the social services fields that I am most interested in advancing in.
  8. My education: I have been very privileged to have been able to pursue and finish a Bachelors, let alone achieving two of them.
  9. Financial support: I am blessed to have my basic needs met without worry.
  10. Means of transportation: I am very lucky to own a new car and to be close to paying it all off
  11. Access to technology: I have a my own laptop and smartphone, I am connected 24hrs a day! Talk about spoiled!

After writing and looking at this list I’ve realized how ungrateful I have become in these last few months. God is probably looking down shaking his head at how thankless I have become. It certainly changes your perspective. I encourage you to create a gratitude list of your own. Share the phenomenon. The joy will spread within your workplace, home and friend’s circle. It can turn a negative environment into a positive one. For gratitude turns what we have into enough.